memories

One of my favorite entries on this site is the 2001 entry, Southern political girl.  It has remained one of my favorite tidbits I’ve ever posted on my site, and every election cycle brings it back to memory.  I have always liked it for its remembrance of the collision of national politics with everyday life; how I saw that particular election from a viewpoint that was different from most of my fellow citizens.

I just had a discussion with my fellow IT workers, and I just dropped a southernism they don’t recognize. I stopped to think about it for a second or two, and realized that I don’t know the ‘real’ name for what I’m describing.

Growing up in Arkansas, we were careful about where in the yard we went barefoot, because there was a certain type of grass we called ‘stickers.’ It was grass, but it has small but definite thornlike parts, and they stuck in your skin (thus the name) and made it very uncomfortable to walk barefoot on grass.

Anyone know the real name of what I’m describing?

At lunchtime, the raindrops were starting to find each other and think about congregating on windshields, and I thought about Chris, out west, half a world and a blizzard away.

Children spend years of their lives wondering, planning, dreaming of this moment. Adults ask the question before children are barely out of diapers: So, sonny, what do you want to be when you grow up? The adults find the answers cute, charming, and endlessly entertaining.My classmates and I were asked this question, once; our answers are printed in a sixth-grade yearbook that NONE OF YOU WILL EVER SEE.

I don’t have a pretty run-in for you here, or a way to lace together these words in a way that has meaning or resonance. In the end, they’re just words, the words of someone who is up at one in the morning and who is thinking through keystrokes instead of being asleep, like she should be.

Father’s Day.

“Well, I think about friends in the back of my mind
Are they still just kids frozen in time
The mirror won’t lie as the days fly by
Are they all no better off than I?”